"You'll never find the right person, if you never let the wrong one go."

Song of the Day: 
It's Not Over- Daughtry

"If you want to know where your heart is, 

look to where your mind goes when it wanders."

{{{From Where You Are - Lifehouse}}}

Do you believe there is more to dreams that just a story that happens while your asleep and ends when you wake in the morning?
Do you think your dreams are just a bunch of your subconscious thoughts throughout the day compiled in your mind and brought to a reality at night?
or Do you think dreams are God's way of communicating with you-- giving you signs of the truth.

I believe dreams are God's way of sending you a message. They say at night, when you go to sleep, God takes over your being and decides if you should wake the next morning. Well, I think while God has taken over your soul, and has full power over it and your full attention, he chooses to communicate with you and answer your questions in that time.
Nonetheless, there are many interpretations of the dream and perceptions of what God is trying to tell you; and what you choose to make of it is up to you.

I had a dream. A dream that my ex-boyfriend, whom by the way is currently my best friend, was happily dating someone else. The environment was the only thing absolutely different than in reality. In my dream he completely denied another girl in is life, but truthfully, he was dating her. He would leave the house daily with a bouquet of flowers, and occasionally come home with some-- I didn't know this because I was stalking him-- we lived across the street from each other! The truth of his romantic relationship was revealed to me by his next door neighbor, who actually didn't want to tell me to begin with because she thought it would hurt too much.

Maybe this is a compilation of my subconscious worries-- that the one girl "who isn't worth mentioning" is THE ONE. But perhaps, it's God telling me that he is indeed seeing someone else and I'm to finally really move on; that I must read between the lines and realize that the people he does tell me about are not really worth it, and the one he chooses not to share with me, may be that special one.

Whatever the intention of my dream was, I woke up feeling very unsettled. I hate those mornings-- the one where everything in your life is finally okay, really good; but it only feels as though something is wrong because your dream carried into reality and affected your mood. Those are days I want to "Dismiss" my alarm, fall back asleep, and have a "Happily Ever After" dream.

(((( You Found Me - The Fray ))))

You haunt me. You're everywhere even when you're not near me. 

Song of the Day : 
"Truly Madly Deeply"-Savage Garden 

Rules to Live by:
1. "He will change" is a myth.. stop planning on it.
2. Exercise. Is. Essential
3. Life encompasses so much more than what shows up on your Facebook Newsfeed.
4. If he really wants you, he will make it happen.. if he's not trying, its not real.
5. Take time to yourself daily and self-reflect.
6. 3AM calls are always worth it.. no matter what you have going on the next day.
7. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.
8. JUST DO IT.. instead of talking about something you want to do or need to do, shutup and do it- it might actually get done.
9. Always having your guard up is understandable to some, but letting that barrier down at times brings emotions out that may not have been a reality up until that moment. It is okay to feel. Its only human. 
10. Step out of your comfort-zone at least once a day.
11. Allow yourself to be vulnerable. 
12. Find something to fight for.
13. Don't take it too seriously, laugh it off, and let it go.
14. The less you reveal, the more people wonder..
15. Find the miracles in every normal day.
16. Be the SMILE that makes life a little easier for someone. 
17. When it comes down to it, we all just want to be loved.

Story time

• Once upon a time there was a princess named Chantalle..
• she had a huge midterm and was freaking out because she wasn't doing well in school.
• She had a best friend who she adored even though he drove her crazy daily with his ridiculous comments and his sly way of pushing her buttons..
  • After long hours of studying, and an anxiety attack later, a dragon came in and scooped her away from school and took her to a Fairy-Paradise where time ceased to exist
  • and a magic carpet brought her best friend to keep her company there.
    The two of them lived in FairyParadise and procreated and ruled the entire land of RCN^2 
    • They went on adventurous hikes daily, ate whatever they wanted whenever they wanted,  and were able to draw their body to their desired appearance, they would lay on a huge grass field in perfect weather-- sun beaming down on them warming their souls and breeze flying through their hair-- laying in utter contentment watching the puffy clouds go by..
    • They engaged in intellectual conversation and lived blissfully. When the dragon took her back to her life.. everything was in place and she got straight As..
      the two best friends filled apart of eachother's life that nobody else could complete.. the presence of their being in one another's life was all they needed for comfort.. the sex was just a plus. 
      Remember one good friend is better than 3 shitty ones.
      The End.
      
      
      (((((I want you to be, what I want you to be, and I want THAT YOU to like me..))))
      
      
      Song of the day:
      Raise Your Weapon-Deadmau5
      
      

"Trust the one who can see these three things:
the sorrow behind your smile, the love behind your anger, and the reason behind your silence."


"Learning to let go should be learned
 before learning to get. Life should be 
touched, not strangled. You've got to 
relax, let it happen at times, and at 
other move forward from it."


"If you believe the doctors, nothing is wholesome. 
If you believe the theologians, nothing is 
innocent. If you believe the military nothing is 
safe-- believe in YOU."

Right When I'm doing just fine you find a way right back into my life. I was fine. I was okay-- actually I was great. No more daily Facebook stalks to see if anything in your virtual life has changed-- sometimes even multiple daily Facebook check-ins, even though I consciously didn't expect anything to change. No more listening to songs that reminded me of you on repeat. No more reading our texts over and over again, and replaying our conversations word for word in my head trying to make sense of it all. After months of not talking to you, you choose now-- when I'm finally on my own two feet to walk yourself right back into my life without even realizing the grandiosity of it all.  Here you go. You're in my head. I can't get you out, you're in there eating away at all my thoughts, clouding my judgements, just taking over everything. My imagination is running wild, and I wonder why one night changed everything.  You held my hand and pulled me in for a sweet kiss, and for a split second I hoped that things would continue passed the morning. Then I bring myself back to earth and realize its just in my head. And when I wake up in your bed I know its time to go home because there's nothing there that's holding me back. The moments pleasure is gone. I give you a light kiss goodbye and spend the rest of my day thinking about you and how it could be.


Song of the day: 
(((((((Angles and Airwaves- The Adventure)))))))

The Edge: there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over

(((Make It Stop- Rise Against)))

In Case you're Curious....

Birthday Wish List:

1. Natural Canvas Toms

2. Sam Edelman heels

3. Jefferey Campbell flats

4. SLR digital camera

5. Car wash

6. Brandy/Urban Outfitters shopping spree

7. Coffee Bean gift card

8. Kayaking

9. DeadMau5 Concert tickets

10. Ipod

11. Spa day: Manicure/Pedicure/Massage

12. Jefferey Campbell heels

13. Sephora giftcard

14. MAC giftcard

15. Flowers

16. To be taken out to a nice dinner

17. Tiffany&Co. Jewelry

18. Chocolate cake, with coffee ice cream with M&Ms (with those cool candles that never go out)

19. New Purse/Wallet

20. Lauren Conrad Books:
            -Style
            -Sweet Little Lies
            - L.A. Candy


21. (One for good luck)