In theory, we all love ourselves. We say we come first-before other's needs, before those horny assholes who just want sex; we repeat all of this to convince ourselves that we really love ourselves. But why don't we act like it?
Why do we have sex with people week after week looking for acceptance from them, when they care nothing more about us than getting off? .. -that's not love for ourselves or our bodies.
Why do we spend hours and hours in front of the TV ingesting fats and oils and always fail to go to the gym when we say we will?..- that's not love for ourselves or our bodies.
Why do we build walls up and keep affection out as if we don't deserve to be adored or treated right?.. - that's not love for ourselves or our heart.
Why do we immerse ourselves in everybody else's problems but forget to listen to our own issues?..- that's not love for ourselves or our mind.
Why do we make time to do favors for everyone else, to help others out, but completely neglect making time for ourselves?.. that's not love.
Why do we stand in front of the mirror in self-hatred and self-doubt?...that's not love for ourselves, our bodies, or our soul.. and furthermore.. why don't we do something about it, if we aren't happy with the way we look?..
Do we really love ourselves? Or do we like to think we do?
Loving yourself does not mean being perfectly happy with every aspect of your existence; it means accepting who you are, and daily, working towards being someone better.

So Remember:
*Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
*Say NO when you mean NO!
*Live with the 3 Es... Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
*Make time to pray.
*Take a 10-30 minute walk daily- and when you walk, smile!
*Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead, invest your energy in the positive present moment.
*Get rid of anything that is not useful, beautiful, or joyful.
*No matter how you feel, get up, dress up, and show up!
*When you awake alive in the morning, thank God for it.
*Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
*Look in the mirror and compliment yourself at least once each day.
*Write. Reflect.

Love yourself. Come to peace with who you presently are, and strive for better each day. Wake up. Smile. Find Purpose. Smile. Sleep. Repeat.

Bizarre bits of the week:

Boys:
How are you going to hook up with her, then delete her off Facebook the next day, pretending like you never knew her? - are you that embarrassed of a decision you made and that cowardly to deal with it ?

How are you going to text her 7 times in a row-in the span of two days- not one response.. and STILL ask if she wants you to delete her number- can't you catch a hint? really?!



Friends:
Why are you going to add me on BBM  as if we talk? The sad part is, I'm stuck both ways- If I "Decline" your request you are going to talk shit, as if I did something sinful.  If I "Accept" your request you will just take up an unwanted spot of my contacts list and pry into my personal life.

We live in an age with overwhelming amounts of technology, and an abundance of resources.. why do you call me and ASK ME EVERY SINGLE QUESTION YOU HAVE? I am NOT an encyclopedia, nor am I an almanac, GPS, or a dictionary. It takes two minutes to look in up on Google.. why go out of your way to call me and ask me?!

Quote of the Day

"We are all like dominoes. 

I fall for you, you fall for another...."

Santa Barbara Earth Day Festival. April 17, 2011

"For the dead and the living, we must bear witness."

Holocaust Survivor, Sigi Hart

March of The Living. Auschwitz, Poland

 

Sigi Hart walking the same steps of the death camp he managed to survive

"We must all stand for something, or we'll fall for anything."

Sigi Hart, a grandfather to all.

.. still fighting, battling death, daily.

Rest In Peace Sigi Hart. You will be forever remembered. Your story will live on for years to come. Your spirit will continue to inspire many. 

Death, in forms of Murder. Old Age. Illness. Suicide. Homicide. Nuclear Weapons.  etc..
Death is a strange concept leaving us wondering "Why?" dragging us down a painful path of missed memories.
We all have different beliefs regarding afterlife.. Are we reincarnated? Do our souls live on? Do we just rot in the Earth?
It always comes in various forms of sad news, and never at "the right time"
It is a heart-wrenching feeling. At times it feels surreal.  We never want to believe it, we can't begin to grasp the idea that our loved one is no longer with us.. that they have "passed." We cannot begin to understand, or even fathom the reality of it.
We reminisce annually, but the memories we hold on to aren't enough,
and in between we have countless waking nights, and overwhelming moments in thought of them.
Death. Apart of life. A shared experience by all.
Death. It is beyond us all. Its a strange concept.
The most far-fetched concept hitting so close to home.

Don't Feed the Monster...

Dear Diary.. Please...

 .. the path to Enlightenment.

.. find the beauty within you.

Average Everyday Sane Psycho Supergoddess

Who are you?

Who am I?

What sets us apart from the rest of the world?

What are you recognized for?

Do we ask ourselves these questions, or do we turn to the closest people in our lives-

do we look to our best friends and mommys for these answers?

I am an old soul. I am 18, but an old soul.

My "super power" is that I love deeply, genuinely, purely.

I want to find the good in everyone and at first, I tend to trust all.

I am the ultimate multi-tasker. Not only will I be on the phone, watch TV, and stalk people

on Facebook, but I will also convince myself that I am doing homework all the while being sucked in by the technological world. 

What about my future?

What do I want to be? What path do I want to take?

How do I decide? How do I know what the "right" decision is?

At what standard must we live?- and how do we know if we will ever amount to anything?

Do we choose based on financial status in our future? How much schooling we want to go through? Or do we simply push all those thoughts out of our minds and do what we have a passion for? 

Do we undergo days of Adderall, all nighters studying, and boring Saturday nights to attend NYU Med school  - to carry that prestige, to be assured of financial stability? or do we immerse ourselves in writing and fashion because at the bottom of our hearts thats our calling?

In the end, at what standard do we want to live up to? Making millions of dollars writing for Vogue, and planning events for high industry names or do we make millions of dollars being on-call, giving birth to babies for the rest of our lives? 

Which life path amounts to more? The one that would make me happy- or the one that brings me social approval? 

In the end, does it really matter? As long as we do something with our lives, does it make a difference what we do?

How do we know? How do we make that critical decision in our lives? Do we turn to others- for social approval and answers? Or do we look within ourselves, our own passions and simply diminish the other doubts soaring through our minds?

At what point does it get too late to decide? When does it start to become "the end" ?

Who are you? 

Whats your purpose in this world?

Are you an Average, Everyday, Sane and Psycho SUPERGoddess?

Double Standards

Why is it that I'm called a slut for hooking up with more than five guys in my lifetime, but you?- you should have hooked up with more than five girls by your junior year.

Why is that I'm considered lucky if you text me more than twice a week, but if I text you at all I'm considered clingy?

Why is it that if I hook up with your best friend I'm a slut, and your friend isn't "in the wrong", but if you hook up with mine, I can't be angry with you because it was my "friend's choice"

Why is it completely normal for a guy to touch his genitalia in public, but frowned upon when a girl has a little itch?

Why am I considered an un-loyal girlfriend if I have male friends, but when it comes to you and your female friends, I'm suddenly crazy, jealous, and possessive.

Why do you find a flaw in every other guy after you, but I must be supportive of every girl you move on to?

Why is it that when we play "hard to get" we are playing games, but when we're easy, we're just a "piece of ass"?

Why is it okay for you to judge me before you really know me, but when I pass judgments about you- I'm considered too analytical, and again, crazy!

Why is it that when I'm quiet or shy.. I'm uptight, but when you're quiet, thats all there is to it?

Why is it that you always lie about your past, as if I don't have one and I am incapable of understanding.

Why is it that if I don't dress in skimpy clothes you can't see through to my sex appeal?

Why is it such a far-fetched idea to take things slow, and get to know each other before you jump my bones?

Why can't I be open about my sexual urges-why is that slutty? is it unnatural for me to want sex? but when it comes to you, I have to listen to you go on and on about every possible thing your dick, mouth and fingers are capable of performing?

Why is it dirty if I smoke a cigarette, but completely acceptable and semi-attractive when you smoke one?

Why do I have to be able to listen to all the girls you want to devour, but when it comes to me and guys, its suddenly gross and too hurtful to listen to?

Why are you able to bring up sex topics but when I bring it up, I'm crossing "boundaries" -- that never even existed in the first place?

Quote of the Day

"Love is just a chemical, no matter the origin.  We give it meaning by choice."

My Bucket List

1. Learn how to ride a bike.
2. Learn how to ride a stick shift car
3. Learn how to speak, read, and write Persian, Hebrew, Arabic, French, German, Italian, and Spanish --fluently.
4. Go sky diving.
5. Go Bungee jumping.
6. Run a mile in under 6 minutes
7. Go para-sailing
8. Go water skiing
9. Learn how to ski and snowboard.. more than just on the bunny slopes!
10. Learn how to skateboard.
11. Get married.
12. Have five children.
13. Travel South America
14. Travel Central America
15. Travel all of the US-- even the midwest
16. Have sex on a plane and on the beach.
17. Travel through Africa, help the unfortunate and go on safaris
18. Study abroad
19. Travel through the Middle East
20. Travel through all of Europe
21. Write and publish a piece of writing.
22. Make my diaries into a book.
23. Fall in love.. again.
24. Go Camping in the nature
25. Go Paint-balling
26. Skinny Dipping
27. Take a road trip
28. Meet Usher, Rachel McAdams, Scarlett Johanson, Pink, The Olsen Twins, Chaning Tatum
29. Open up my own medical practice, and clinic.
30. Train and Run a marathon for a good cause.
31. Live in New York.
32. Ride a camel.
33. Ride an elephant
34. Go to a Zoo- anyy zoo
35. Come in close contact to a monkey
36. Stay out all night.
37. Create a photography portfolio
38. Direct and Produce a documentary
39. Be a matchmaker for at least 3 couples
40. Watch all of Alfred Hitchcock's movies.
41. Own and watch all seasons and episodes of the following:
       Boy Meets World
       Californication
       Friends
       One Tree Hill
       The Original Beverly Hills 90210
       Sex and the City
42. Donate my hair
43. Donate blood.
44. Remove every picture that I own on a electronic device(phone, computer, camera, flash drive) and print out hard copies
45. Create scrapbooks of my life from beginning to end and my childrens' lives.
46. Attend a SuperBowl Game
47. Go Rock climbing

There's nothing like snuggling in bed, watching an old episode of Friends, and drinking a hot cup of cocoa on a rainy day.

"Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too."--Lemony Snicket

" I have fallen in love with the highest potential of a man, rather than the man himself. "

Quote of the Day

Love is handing your heart to someone and taking the risk that they will hand it back because they don’t want it. That’s why it’s such a crushing ache on the inside. We gave away a part of ourselves and it wasn’t wanted.

Love is a giving away of power. When we love we give the other person the power in the relationship. They can do what they choose. They can do what they like with our love. They can reject it, they can accept it, they can step toward us in gratitude and appreciation.

Love is a giving away. When we love we put ourselves out there, we expose ourselves, we allow ourselves to be vulnerable.

Love is giving up control. It’s surrendering the desire to control the other person. The two - love and controlling power over the other person - are mutually exclusive. If we are serious about loving someone, we have to surrender all of the desires within us to manipulate the relationship.